I don't know whether it's the seasonal impact or what, but I've been plagued by bad thoughts a lot more recently. I just wanna curl up in a corner and never come out. I don't want to have to worry about grades, or tutoring, or life...
What sort of a person has to worry about their own life?! What sort of a person actively has to try and keep themselves alive, constantly monitoring their own thoughts, feelings and actions?! Is that anyway to live?! I ask myself these questions all the time and yet the answers never change. Me, me, me, this is a torturous life where just when you think you can take no more, something will come along to brighten your day just enough to make you carry on until you reach breaking point again. This is my life, this is how I live it. I hate it. I hate myself. But I cannot change it. Just gotta keep on ploughing through,,.