It's not just the thoughts, I feel constantly tired; still sleepy after 12 hours of sleep, I just don't feel like I can get out of bed in the mornings; having to force myself out even though I literally feel like leaving my bed makes me want to leave the world; I don't feel hungry as often; either loosing my appetite and barely eating or stuffing myself to the point of bursting and then fasting again. All my old symptoms are returning and I'm scared...
I'm scared about what I'll do to myself, or others and how I'll get over this. I'm scared cause I feel like I'm going to die. I'm scared because I don't want to die, but the pain of lie is getting unbearable. I'm really really scared that I'm going to revert. I'm really scared that I won't get through this. I'm scared...