It's been a while, hasn't it...? I got my results last week, they were decent. Not good enough for my parents evidently as my dad, who is currently staying at home with me, won't stop telling me to study and improve my grades, and do well next year. I'm just so frustrated at him! I've been doing my reading for interview/personal statement everyday, I've been trying to sort out the school science magazine and also organise events with friends. So what if I want to relax and watch shows in-between?! I just feel so wronged with him saying that I only play and relax and don't do any work. So wronged...not that he'll listen to what I have to say, iI've tried. On top of this going on at home, the constant "I'm worried about your future if you continue to act like this (being what in his opinion is lazy", I can't get as much work as I would like to do done as my teacher isn't replying to any of my e-mails. It just feels like all of the adults in my life are just trying to destroy me, sabotage me, and make me break. ARGH!!! I know that I'm sounding incredibly self-centred right now, and maybe I am, but that is how it feels right now. I felt honestly quite happy with my results until I showed them to my parents...That is when everything went down hill, and now I am constantly being reminded with my dad at home that I have to work hard (basically non-stop) to make sure that I get into Cambridge and get the grades I need. I just want him gone for a day! Just to relax for a day! but sadly I can't.... So a message to my dad:
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September 2019
Lollikpop21 year old, 11 years since I stopped being clinically depressed, 9 since diagnosis. |