Today I'm feeling really nervous, anxious, scared and uncomfortable. Part of the reason for this might be the residual nerves from my presentation, the rest, however, I'm sure comes from dinner planning. My group of friends and I are going out for dinner tonight however I misjudged the time it took to get there and so I've dropped them a memo about where to meet and when but none are replying and one if a bit ill and unsure if she can come. My nerves are so on edge. Part of me just wants to call the whole thing off and curl into a ball. It's suppose to be my birthday celebration...but I'm really not feeling it right now. At least it's better than my last birthday which was a catastrophic disaster, I might tell that story another day as it was a day I missed in my year away. I'm shaking right now, and might go and at least attempt to take a nap to calm myself down; there has never been a time when I wished chill pills were real things more. Until next time...
Been a long time, I'm sorry, but labs have so exhausted and drained I haven't much time to do anything else apart from sleep. My birthday went well, and I completed my first lab today with a presentation; don't know how well it went though...
Today I'm feeling really nervous, anxious, scared and uncomfortable. Part of the reason for this might be the residual nerves from my presentation, the rest, however, I'm sure comes from dinner planning. My group of friends and I are going out for dinner tonight however I misjudged the time it took to get there and so I've dropped them a memo about where to meet and when but none are replying and one if a bit ill and unsure if she can come. My nerves are so on edge. Part of me just wants to call the whole thing off and curl into a ball. It's suppose to be my birthday celebration...but I'm really not feeling it right now. At least it's better than my last birthday which was a catastrophic disaster, I might tell that story another day as it was a day I missed in my year away. I'm shaking right now, and might go and at least attempt to take a nap to calm myself down; there has never been a time when I wished chill pills were real things more. Until next time...
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Lollikpop21 year old, 11 years since I stopped being clinically depressed, 9 since diagnosis. |