Another week another casualty of SM...Luhan....my ultimate bias, though I hate to use that word because to me he is so much more. I have talked about my sad past before and to be honest I don't have the happiest of presents, and whenever I felt down, alone, and scared I turned to EXO, Kpop and more specifically Luhan. He was the one person that could always put a smile on my face when I saw him on TV or watched a music video with him in. He became my light in my deepest darkness. My hope when all hope was lost, and now.....well, now he's left SM and I don't know what will happen next. I hope the rumours are true that the 4 Chinese EXO members will join forces as a new group in China, but at the moment that doesn't seem too believable. I hope he continues singing and that I will be able to continue to see him as him, but I'm scared, scared of the unknown. What will happen to me the next time I'm alone and down and he is nowhere to be found? I'm scared that I'll be lost without my light to guide me through the darkness. To many of you this may seem pathetic and like an overemotional tween, but to me this is mrs than that; as with all honesty without EXO and Luhan I would probably have died, they saved my life. So thank you Luhan, and thank you EXO. Thank you and I wish you all the best...
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Lollikpop21 year old, 11 years since I stopped being clinically depressed, 9 since diagnosis. |